The following is a fully copyrighted outline of truncated first paragraph lines of Cowmaker’s Eve, a novel by C. Francis Ray.


1. Cowmaker’s Eve

2. A Celestial Romance

3. State of Vatican City: Rovimano Feed

4. Supreme Sacred Congregation of the Roman and Universal Inquisitio…

5. Office of His Excellency Cardinal Urs von Maussinger, Congregation…

6. “Yes, my faithful ones, the screen shows the scene clearly. The recalc…

7. Rovimano, Italy

8. Villa Oblato

9. St. Stanislaus Cell

10.Must view again ... cameras caught the moment ... did I miss somethi…

11. 17:29:16. Two elderly, wheelchair-bound sisters of the Sorrowful Mad…

12.White, clean, caped angels behind the black clad women: sickness? e…

13.17:35:41. The path of the two attended sisters diverge. One attendan…

14.17:41:09. The attendant near the main altar, leaving her charge, lock…

15.What’s compels their wills, these angels of wrath? Butchery of innoc…

16.17:38:22. The steady hum of crowd noise is interrupted by a pop, then…

17.The machinations of the Holy Office under Maussinger, the unholy a…

18.19:42:13. In the Sistine Chapel His Holiness Pope Sebastian I remov…

19.19:44:52. Upon the pallium, seated face-to-face, legs entwined, the co…

20.I view no sacrilegious rite, no penetration by a thrusting, untamed o…

21.Could this holy copulation of spirit be proclaiming the ignition of a l…

22.I will begin the history now, write in my own hand, eschew traceable…

23.My Dearest Sebbie

24.Villa Oblato - Rovimano, Italy

25.17 February 2022 / 12 Adar 5779 / 11 Djumada 'l-Akhira 1440

26.Our Father’s grace, the peace of the LJC and the prayers of His mot…

27.I sent the substance of this report to Maussinger while you were con…

28.The attack of last May that ravaged San Pietro and La Capella Sistin…

29.My handlers have my movements and media well-monitored, but I m…

30.More than theology was revealed by the utterances of the couple. Lo…

31.The Spirit guided you into this Office, my dearest, but you were mor…

32.Your healing process has run many months; your doctors said your …

33.San Pietro and La Capella Sistina were not so fortunate. The nefario…

34.How did it come to this? We have been separated by the very men wh…

35.We were mad in our love, my dearest, possessed by God, immersed i…

36.Those who lacked a deep and penetrating faith were not ready to emb…

37.Before my incarceration, as I shall call it, my months of freedom allow…

38.We cannot hide what the movements of the Spirit in this world have…

39.When will we be together again Sebbie? Soon I hope. My messages f…

40.Will this loss of chaste union deter our quest? Indeed, not. The pow…

41.I submit this emanation of the Spirit in the world began with the visio…

42.In the first year of her marriage to Buford Jackson, she disappeared …

43.Recently, however, one of our defrocked brethren who had worked a…

44.In any case, trying to pursue his and Laranía’s whereabouts at this p…

45.In conducting these interviews with Tlazola, I employed three transl…

46.Whether or not Tlazola was the recipient of an authentic religious exp…

47.My studies in the field of neuro-spirituality have convinced me the f…

48.Understanding the Tlazola mindset, we can then approach the subs…

49.What were, then, were the particular elements of the milieu experie…

50.She grew up in the matriarchal society which existed in a small regi…

51.The men of the region, on the other hand, were smaller of stature an…

52.We have also debunked another folklorish notion sometimes given c…

53.The sight of women dancing with each other and engaging in public …

54.Who can tell what inbred social force kept the Teluankan mind resis…

55.Chaoíte del Chíaolopo: The Lady in the Moon

56.Provincia de Chiapas

57.Estados Unidos Mexicanos

58.Subject: Tlazola de Attianna Jackson

59.Session One

60.You have traveled many distance, Reverendo Padre, to hear words f…

61.The seeing in my head knew that the cowman’s planted seed inside m…

62.My past begins when my girlhood ended near this village where the g…

63.My mother makes me ready for that holy time when first my body p…

64.They ask me what I see. I tell them I see the Lady stands above the …

65.Over the weeks of my seeing her each night, my hair becomes the co…

66.Then one night I wake to feel the warmth between my legs. I am a sac…

67.In my head and heart I also feel a change. I am now a fountain oozin…

68.My heart is pounding and I run to the bed of mamá to wake her. I sho…

69.At breakfast mamá fixes for me broth from the great lizard’s flesh, fre…

70.My older brothers, Mancha and Mestío—my mind goes back to my dr…

71.The father-man shuffles off to the fields with other village men and fe…

72.Father-men do not go to market, only on the weekends to join in cel…

73.Instead of my shirt of the little mouse, I put on now the huipil dress …

74.On this morning mamá helps me put upon our faithful burro, Menc…

75.On the way to the market mamá takes me to the warm water of the li…

76.The women take me to the market, to a bar. They show me to a man w…

77.My mother takes me to the market place. The stalls are filled with wo…

78.The family from the North comes to our market stall, the Senora Zarz…

79.The family has two sons my age, Miguel and Gabriel. They make room…

80.Rancho Zarzamora: The Worm of Miguelito

81.Provincia de Chiapas

82.Estados Unidos Mexicanos

83.Subject: Tlazola de Attianna Jackson

84.Session Two

85.We arrive at the rancho of the Zarzamora family and I am given to wo…

86.Miguel comes into the room where I am placing the coverings on his…

87.A soft feeling for the young Miguelito comes into me. I tell him he ca…

88.Now, I must confess to you, kind reverend father, that the sculpted …

89.I see now in your eyes, good Padrecito, a sadness from my telling. D…

90.When I told another young doméstica of the act with Miguel, she tel…

91.When the Zarzamora family makes ready for the feast of Christmas, …

92.The Day of Buford’s Coming

93.Provincia de Chiapas

94.Estados Unidos Mexicanos

95.Subject: Tlazola de Attianna Jackson

96.Session Three

97.He drives his truck onto the ranch pulling a trailer holding a large w…

98.In the morning of the next day, I am in his room to clean his bed. H…

99.Buford tells the Señor Zarzamora of his coming to my flesh and tells …

100.The sun rises, and Buford takes me in his truck, the trailer on the t…

101.The good Señor kisses me and tells me to say my age is ten and eig…

102.El Rancho Vacacerlo

103.Provincia de Chiapas

104.Estados Unidos Mexicanos

105.Subject: Tlazola de Attianna Jackson

106.Session Four

107.The gate to Rancho Vacacerlo opens with a pushing by the nose of …

108.The new year comes and Buford tells me I must meet the people in h…

109.The colonia en el rancho where the worker people live has more ho…

110.One day Buford’s eyes are on us bathing. I see his image in the bedro…

111.I see the image of my Buford in the mirror, and I know I am no longe…

112.Soila sings to me, and in the songs I hear the love the Spirit makes i…

113.She tells me tales she watches on the box-with-pictures of a young …

114.The Counsel of Gratías

115.Provincia de Chiapas

116.Estados Unidos Mexicanos

117.Subject: Tlazola de Attianna Jackson

118.Session Five

119.A greater sorrow comes into my heart when Buford takes me to his …

120.He gives me books that tell the stories of the god I am to love. Ther…

121.I tell him I have made this Jesus with my hands to live in the jacal o…

122.“You may have touched the lord with unclean hands,” he says. “The…

123.I ask him when I will be washed, and he tells me that I must wait u…

124.The book he gave me had the Jesus boy go to the temple for the cut…

125.“No, no, no,” he says. “That was done to show his saving blood to a p…

126.To make me know the pain and evil of the cutting, he shows me bo…

127.The Cutting of My Son and My Walk into the Sea

128.Provincia de Chiapas

129.Estados Unidos Mexicanos

130.Subject: Tlazola de Attianna Jackson

131.Session Six

132.The words of Gratías make a noise inside my head, and I take my S…

133.The baby in my womb begins to leap, and the words of Gratías that t…

134.We hear the rustling of a herd of javelina in the brush and catch th…

135.The man, Buford, is away from the house and I want him not to see…

136.To my son I give no milk from my swollen breast, but from a cabin…

137.I am naked and have not cleaned myself. I put the bloodied, flower…

138.In the morning I wake to see two fishers over me. They say kind wor…

139.I live these days in happiness; my Teluankan sisters care for me. T…

140.Are these words enough for you Reverendo Padre? The sun is now …

141.A People Lost

142.That is the story of this dear woman, Sebbie, the mother who gave …

143.We have lost, dear Sebbie, our ruling church has lost through arroga…

144.I thought the findings of my journey to the Isthmus were complete,…

145.Longhorn Trailer Park, Kingspoint, Texas

146.Upon arrival at Clayburg County airport, I was greeted by our man w…

147.We were greeted at the door of a run-down trailer home by the wo…

148.We sat face-to-face in wooden chairs amidst the clutter of soiled cl…

149.Tell me, Mister Stiche—you don’t mind I call you ‘mister,’ do you, ‘…

150.I won’t be no trailer trash for long, you know. I got a guy tellin’ my …

151.I passed my little Buckie to many different women who nursed him f…

152.His mother, Laz, that birthed him—man she got fucked up and star…

153.One day Laz showed me clay dolls she made of her people’s gods. S…

154.Here, take a look at this, Stiche. I kept one of the clay statues she ma…

155.She told me to teach her kid some messed-up bible stories, too. Show…

156.You know, just before she cut up his dick skin, she told her baby bo…

157.After Laz got done butcherin’ the poor kid’s pecker, and dragged he…

158.I was in the middle of making cross signs on the baby’s body when B…

159.When Buford settled down, he told me to take care of Bucky while …

160.I never saw Buford much after that. He’d be out on the ranch all da…

161.Mind you, I got to thinkin’ what might happen between him and m…

162.Now, Stiche, I told you some things already ‘bout gettin’ some jollie…

163.She told me prayers to say when I held him on my tits. She showed …

164.Now, don’t feed me no bullshit about abuse or any shit like that. M…

165.When little Buckie could toddle around, I took him out so my frien…

166.Whenever I changed him, my friends would all got a kick out of me…

167.I was still takin’ care of Buckie when he turned five, though, and th…

168.What happened was I left Buckie out in the back yard playing with …

169.The next day Buford sent his foreman over with some money and bu…

170.Now, here’s the happy part, Stiche. After momma died, I put my bod…

171.Strangest goddamn thing happened a few years later. Some of the l…

172.Well, Sebbie, I assured Ms. Manchado that sainthood is an attainab…

173.What I want to present to you now, Sebbie, is a transcription of the p…

174.After we summoned Buck from his hermitage on Rancho Vacacerlo …

175.To fully evaluate the spiritual status of the prophetic events that oc…

176.The technique I ordered my assistant, Dr. Raphael Lorenzo, to emp…

177.You must remember, Sebbie, that it was your approval of experime…

178.At times in his narrative, Father Jackson recounts events in the spe…

179.Much of what you will read in this report, dear Sebbie, I have kept fr…

180.Interrogazione: Measure of the Bull

181.Instituto Pontificale di Spiritualità Neurologica

182.Clinic Trionfale

183.777 via della Pineta Sachetti, Roma, Italia

184.Interrogazione BFJ, Prima Parte

185.Interrogatore: Raphael Lorenzo, T.H.D., Psy.D., D.P.T.

186.Well, Ralph, you ask me about the first time I remember being clos…

187.“Son, you’re looking at about a thousand head that we’re going to s…

188.Yeah, that was Buford. That man had some strange goings on in hi…

189.A few weeks later Buford took me out to watch the mating of our b…

190.“You see, son, how Too Tall has those narrow hips, too much angle i…

191.On this day Buford went on and on about his bull evaluations:

192.“Before you lay down good money for a bull, you gotta measure his b…

193.Buford taught me the younger the better is the time to castrate a bu…

194.“You gotta make sure he’s relaxed and doesn’t pull his balls up. So…

195.The first time I put the ring on successfully, I couldn’t help but feeli…

196.(Sebbie, Father Jackson is here referring to flippant discussions we …

197.We rode over to the holding pen where Buford wanted to tell me m…

198.“You gotta be able to tell when a cow is in heat and ready for moun…

199.On many other days, Buford wanted me to ride out with him to watc…

200.“There, she’s got it in her, son. See how he jumped. If he doesn’t gi…

201.I hope these things I’m tellin’ you, Ralph, have something to do wit…

202.He told me to try to keep the mother turned the other way which wa…

203.I took the pitchfork and kept the mother turned so she wouldn’t se…

204.I got to see many more cows drop their calves during my seventh y…

205.“Let her go son; it’s her instinct. She’ll eat the birthing stuff so pre…

206.It came time for me to help at my first birthin’ of a momma cow w…

207.I helped Buford deliver, and what happened was the cow couldn’t …

208.Buford went to the freezer to get a bottle of first milk that he store…

209.Buford goes to the tool shed, gets a skinning knife and hack saw, a…

210.In about twenty minutes he had the wet skin stripped, brought in an…

211.One morning when I was still a kid, I got up early and saw Buford’s …

212.“Know what these are, son?” he asked. “These are from ol’ man Land…

213.Buford took me out to pasture with him to show me how to tag the …

214.The next day, the Doc was already in the pasture at sunrise workin…

215.Kupchek demonstrated the procedure, and Buford told me to watc…

216.There I was: puttin’ on the greased-up, shoulder-length gloves; kee…

217.One day when I was eight, I asked Buford why he didn’t talk about m…

218.Gratías and the Greeks

219.My days of goin’ to Father Gratías for knowin’ how to live my life la…

220.What he did in our first talk session when I was eight was to rip off…

221.I guess the seeds of my urge to become a priest started growin’ in …

222.Gratías wasn’t real fond of the Mexican people, at least not the poo…

223.This priest had the cockeyed idea that the Mexican was still given t…

224.He went on to tell me about his sessions with her, how she wanted …

225.Gratías told me the same thing about Laz that Buford told me, that…

226.When I got on toward puberty, Gratías kept me involved in his life b…

227.One day when I was rummagin’ through his library I found a stack …

228.It happened when I was readin’ the history of the martyrdom of Sa…

229.Well, I was tryin’ to clean up, wiping the front of my jeans with a h…

230.“That my soul may follow me to you, freed from the glue of lust,” I …

231.When I reached adolescence, the tenor of my sessions with Gratías c…

232.I read stories about the Greek wrestler, Milo, who walked around t…

233.When I started at the local high school, the football coach came to t…

234.Let me tell you ‘bout what happened to disgust me about the way t…

235.When we got to the ranch, the older players lined us freshmen up, …

236.The next day coach asked me what had happened at the party, and …

237.I went to confession to Gratías about the incident, not so much to t…

238.I took up throwing the discus with a passion. Buford got over his dis…

239.One day a girl named Dicksie came out to the practice circle at sch…

240.I told her all about Gratías bein’ my priest and teacher and how he s…

241.Our throwin’ together was like a bond between me and Dicksie, an…

242.We were in the pasture practicing throws on a hot day in May. I wa…

243.It was a climactic moment in my spiritual development when that …

244.We stood looking at each other for what seemed to be a long minut…

245.“And your pecker hangs like a wet noodle,” she shot back, thinking …

246.It was quite satisfying being with her that day until we got our clot…

247.I submitted to the kisses and her gyrations for a moment unsure of…

248.“What the shit you talkin’ about, Buckie?” she hissed. “You don’t wa…

249.It was at that moment, listening to the desperate words of this poo…

250.The next time I saw Gratías I told him about the episode, and he ask…

251.There I was three nights a week in Gratías’ library poring over the …

252.Knowing thyself, woman and know your shame … you temple build…

253.Well, after I read a hell of a lot of this stuff about what the church f…

254.“I assigned those readings to you to show you what not to believe. …

255.I really thought that Gratías got that ‘cow turd’ part right, and my ow…

256.The next day I got to thinking about what it would be like to be a pr…

257.“Yes, I think that would make the sketch more authentic,” he said. …

258.I posed for him holding a plastic trash can lid tied to a string hooke…

259.“Don’t look at the church of these days to find out what a priest shou…

260.“Jesus Christ became the perfect priest. He shunned the sacred plac…

261.At the time, I couldn’t put these ideas Gratías was tellin’ me about th…

262.At the end of our last session, when he stood up, I saw Gratías’ pen…

263.On the finished sketch I viewed later that week, Gratías had restor…

264.While this artistic ploy and the incomprehensible words he uttered…

265.I figured spring roundup would be the best time to let Buford kno…

266.During the next few weeks, Buford began contractin’ the men that w…

267.Some of the kinds of people Buford would not tolerate on roundup w…

268.The Mexican vaqueros Buford hired had this way of roping from h…

269.Buford made the men eat together, too, using the old tin plates and…

270.One night towards the end of roundup when we could hear the ru…

271.Buford got out a bottle of Old Jack from his knapsack that he said h…

272.“That good lookin’ gal you were throwin’ with in the pasture, don’t y…

273.“All families end, Dad,” I told him. “Just seems Laz ended ours soon…

274.“Your mother held a mixed up bunch of superstitions that got all t…

275.“We took another couple of healthy swigs of the Jack; Buford was q…

276.“Hell, son, I know them priests do good work; most of the Valley w…

277.Something moved me to tell Buford I thought he had more religion…

278.That Buford, he taught me by his actions what it means to be a ma…

279.The week after roundup, I got to feelin’ like I was some kind of Gre…

280.We were drivin’ along the fence line in Buford’s pickup looking for r…

281.We walked over to the tangled up animal. “She’s racked up pretty go…

282.Here’s how my mind thought about the act: The powder made fro…

283.My eyes were fixed on the spatter of bone and brain stuff on the sal…

284.Now, I don’t know why I said what I did, but I told him I thought it …

285.Buford made me carry the doe’s carcass back to the pickup. “I want…

286. We drove back in silence to the house, and I carried the dead doe i…

287.Seed Plot Men

288.Seminary: “seed plot”—that’s how Gratías described it. Buford dro…

289.Buford wore his rancher’s best; even wore his ostrich skin boots, a b…

290.The Father Superior welcomed me into his office with open arms. …

291.When I was waitin’ for Buford to finish the financial business, I sa…

292.When I got back to where Buford was, all the business was settled; h…

293.St. Francis was the only seminary in the country that played tackle …

294.At the end of the first week of testing for sporting prowess, the non…

295.One of the first friends I made at St. Francis was Sydney Stiche, a li…

296.During a tackling practice, Syd was lined up against me and I was t…

297.Life in the locker room was a trial for Syd. He would at times come o…

298.Tough kid, that Sydney, but horse sense, he had none. Like I said, …

299.Let me tell you what I saw as the genius of the schoolin’ we got at S…

300.Some of those dear men I remember: the priest-infirmarian oozing…

301.We got a hell of an education at the feet of these characters whose co…

302.When I graduated from the seminary, I paid my last visit to Father…

303.“Threats of excommunication and everlasting punishment morphe…

304.“The new pope, that weak-kneed Sebastian, let the bishops walk all…

305.Roman Indiscretions

306.With those words of encouragement from Gratías, I accepted my ap…

307.Well, I started high-steppin’ through the teachin’ called “perennial…

308.Always they were there—shadows in my mind that crept about wh…

309.I kept tryin’ to find the guts of what the Romans were throwin’ at …

310.Boy, was I surprised to see him. I thought he’d been washed out of …

311.Syd ate up all the medieval ideas about God and the world we were b…

312.One day, I was feelin’ down because I failed one of my exams. I got c…

313.Failin’ like that hit me hard because I thought I was finally gettin’ …

314.I spent the day listening to Syd’s nauseating, high-pitched voice, an…

315.I got fed up with listening, unzipped, drew it out, and let loose a str…

316.Syd got so angry with my pissin’ on the “bellybutton of the world” th…

317.I talked to some of the prostitutes who approached me and counsele…

318.The next time I saw Syd, he was holding some first year seminarian…

319.He knew that I was required to report this activity and that if I did, h…

320.(Note re this incident: This is probably the first you have heard of t…

321.Campo di Lavoro dell'Associazione Emmaus

322.Sebbie, it was during a lull in their encounter in the refuge near Tr…

323.The Superior of his house had directed Buck to attend the camp as p…

324.Buck joined these young university students who were sent door-to-…

325.The circumstances of Buck’s first meeting with Laranía and the resp…

326.I had heard the other young women in the camp had declared him …

327.When I bent over him to arrange some papers in the paper press a…

328.He made me laugh when he exclaimed, “Jesus Christ!” as the baili…

329.We sat together many times, and he told me stories of life on his fa…

330.On an outing to Venice with the work camp group, we left the othe…

331.Later that day, we climbed that tower in Piazza San Marco, and I sca…

332.Let me now offer, Sebbie, Fr. Jackson’s account of this initial enco…

333.Instituto Pontificale di Spiritualità Neurologica

334.Clinic Trionfale

335.777 via della Pineta Sachetti, Roma, Italia

336.Interrogazione BFJ, Seconda Parte

337.Interrogatore: Raphael Lorenzo, T.H.D., Psy.D., D.P.T.

338.Who was she? Lara was one of a number of European college studen…

339.During our work together over the next few weeks, we talked of Go…

340.It happened at one of the houses in a wealthy neighborhood where…

341.I had soiled my hands carrying the furniture, so I asked to use the …

342.Lara grabbed my arm, helped me put my shirt on, and we left the ho…

343.Let me tell you something, Ralph, the look in Lara’s eyes and the c…

344.When we got back to the camp, Lara took me aside and gave me th…

345.At the end of my six-week session in the work camp, on the evenin…

346.I woke the next morning after a sleepless night and discovered she h…

347.A Mother’s Tale

348.I arrived at the Rossettini home in late afternoon. It was a modest …

349.After exchanging some pleasantries, and I got my ear tuned to her N…

350.I accepted her invite and after helping her decant portions of wine …

351.I helped the signora clear the table and mentioned that the hour wa…

352.I sipped the yellowish liquor with the Signora. It had soothing effec…

353.She told about a man in a drunken stupor, his manhood impotenza…

354.She spoke about a cold March wind that blew down from the Dolo…

355.She approached him softly, without haste. He looked up when she …

356.The stranger led her into the woods and asked her to lie on a bed h…

357.The woman described the coupling with the stranger as a clean and…

358.In the coming days she felt the child grow inside her, feeling like a …

359.On the night the woman’s water flowed and the pushing had begun…

360.The midwife told her helpers to keep her legs apart, but the mothe…

361.It was then the mother heard the midwife gasp when the baby dropp…

362.The midwife gasped again when she peels the caul from the torso o…

363.The midwife told the mother to rise from the pallet and squat over …

364.On the same day of the child’s birth, the attending women put the m…

365.The old midwife cried out when she thinks she sees a bird of prey ho…

366.I had been listening politely to the signora’s story when she notice…

367.I had a fitful sleep that night. A being overwhelmed me in a dream,…

368.I had to get out of that house; something was going on that I could…

369.I was real quiet when I left just before daybreak, leaving a note for …

370.Back in Rome, I readied my innards—I guess that included my soul…

371.At this point, Sebbie, Buck presented a copy of the letter to the inte…

372.“Cara Bucci, it tears my heart apart and there is a dark illness in m…

373.“I shall make love—no, not make love—make them to love, you and…

374.The interrogator made a photo copy of the letter and returned it to B…

375.A couple of hours after my ordination, the Father Superior in charg…

376.At McIlhenny’s insistence, a Vatican diplomatic aide picked me up …

377.I didn’t have the heart to tell the Cardinal that my ambition, at the m…

378.You must recall, Sebbie, the dossier I sent regarding Cardinal McIl…

379.A Troubled Ministry

380.Instituto Pontificale di Spiritualità Neurologica

381.Clinic Trionfale

382.777 via della Pineta Sachetti, Roma, Italia

383.Interrogazione BFJ, Terza Parte

384.Interrogatore: Raphael Lorenzo, T.H.D., Psy.D., D.P.T.

385.When I got back to Texas, I gathered Buford’s remains from the m…

386.Buford left the ranch and all his possessions to me, and I promptly…

387.My early ministry in Brownsville was tedious. The Cardinal wanted …

388.Everything went well, at first, simple construction of win-win mea…

389.Then, one season, early fall of my first year of ministry God-awful …

390.After I ministered to the mother of the ninth cabezita grumosa and…

391.The nurses let me hold one of those little creatures with the misshap…

392.In my first meetings with the power mongers, they warned me that…

393.A week or two later, I found out by information I heard in several co…

394.At an economic development council meeting called to gather publ…

395.A month later, two young women, good and holy people of the pari…

396.After a few months of my probing and accusing, the sometimes succ…

397.The plot against me began with several contrived confessions. A m…

398.The next day, a young girl confesses that her father, a drug dealer, …

399.I agreed to meet her at a Matamoros cafe, since she feared her fath…

400.I had told the girl what I would be wearing and to refer to me as “T…

401.I went to the cafe dressed in non-clerical garb so as not to draw att…

402.I waited at an out of the way table in a darkened corner of the cafe a…

403.After a few minutes Maria walked through a beaded curtain in a bac…

404.Maria, I thought: that virgin bride of the Holy Spirit; that woman …

405.The waiter looked at us rather strangely when he brought her a Co…

406.I woke when Mexican police burst through the door of room seven o…

407.In the jail cell when I was sleeping off the effects of the drug, I had m…

408.I told this shit to Ruben, the high-powered Mexican attorney hired…

409.Ruben later told me how the cartel had hired Kupchek to use an el…

410.This tragicomedy didn’t run to final resolution with my exoneratio…

411.A Cleansing of the Flesh

412.I had McIlhenny’s permission to take a sabbatical for several weeks…

413.Homero, the ranch foreman, disturbed me one day when I was abo…

414.“Ay, Dios mio, Padre he asked, “have the varmints attacked your fles…

415.She wrote in the letter that she thinks I am lost in a “dark labyrinth…

416.The rest of her letter scolded me for entering into an “inescapable …

417.She wrote, and I can quote from memory the words she used, that I …

418.This woman surmised that my “desperate funk” was based on my “…

419.She asked, “At our coming together at Pescarola, were your words f…

420.She claimed, “The power of my love continues to be aimed at both …

421.She wrote that I probably valued her as “an object, a forgotten piec…

422.At the bottom of the letter where she signed her name, she wrote t…

423.Funny thing though, I didn’t give a shit about happiness, or states …

424.There was a damning anomaly, though, in this abuse of body in the…

425.Soon I rejected the false certainty that abuse of the flesh assured con…

426.After aborted sessions of attempted contemplation, I would often hi…

427.The rattlers, wild pigs, javelina and occasional stray goat would suf…

428.The other animals I killed: the dove, quail, and deer, I would bleed…

429.I wasn’t entirely alone during these desert days; from time to time …

430.About two months into this hermitting ordeal, just after dawn one m…

431.Suddenly, a large javelina boar pushed its way through the brush int…

432.I pulled a pair of leather gloves from the back pocket of my jeans, g…

433.A Summons to Rome

434.“Ola! Padre Jackson!” The voice startled me out of a reverie as I lay…

435.I thanked Homero for bringing the call. I had just about run the co…

436.I recognized the caller ID on the phone’s display. It was Thomas O’R…

437.I hit the redial button and the beeper raced through the fourteen di…

438.I told him who I was. “You are the one,” he said in Italian. He bega…

439.I remembered enough of my Latin to know he was referring to me…

440.There was a pause in the old priest’s rant, some murmuring—soun…

441.“Which authority?” I asked, knowing that the Vatican these days w…

442.I almost dropped the phone. The girl I had collected junk with, the w…

443.I apologized to Sebastian for questioning his secretary. “Did the wo…

444.I was back on the line with the secretary who snidely asked, “Is tha…

445.Homero gave me a hand, and I climbed on to ride double behind hi…

446.A black Mercedes limo drove up to the house just as I was finishing …

447.At the Corpus Christi airport, I boarded a private jet used by the Va…

448.Amare è la maniere più intensa di vivere. The words Lara wrote cam…

449.The Girding of His Loins

450.I stepped off the plane at Ciampino Airport, and the steward directe…

451.“Welcome, my son. May your loins remain the seat of strength and …

452.There were rumors among the American hierarchy—I remember o…

453.O’Reilly gave the limo driver directions and said he was going to ta…

454.The old priest poked me in the ribs, reminded me I used to sleep d…

455.We entered the catacombs through what used to be the courtyard o…

456.I started feeling a bit woozy—might have been the confined space. T…

457.We entered one of the many alcoves along the tunnel and O’Reilly …

458.“Note, Father Jackson, the petite nature of her exposed breast. We c…

459.I had to look that quote up when I got back to my room; the Latin vo…

460.After a few minutes of trudging in silence through sandstone rubbl…

461.“About two centuries ago diggers in these tunnels found a small ph…

462.‘The Vatican relic office scooped up the remains and stored them f…

463.“What a pity the renewed church after Vatican Two knocked this lit…

464.I let the old priest go on and on with his crazy talk out of respect fo…

465.It’s hard to explain the look he gave me, but it completely disarme…

466.He took from his pocket a white and red cord of wool-like material a…

467.I asked him who this “Winnie” was, and he told me he was Father W…

468.I asked him what he meant by “cleansing corruption,” but he told …

469.When we exited the catacombs, Thomas told the driver to take us t…

470.Winnie and His “Witch”

471.At this point, Sebbie, Father O’Reilly related what he knew of Fathe…

472.Analysis of the mental impalement Pavlowski suffered in the confe…

473.I include here the text of Father Pavlowski’s written narrative for y…

474.I, Wenceslaus Pavlowski, an honored Monseigneur and pastor of t…

475.Though I speak fluent Italian, the people of this village never really…

476.Let them laugh. The preservation of meat was an art form practice…

477.In my youth I served as assistant chamberlain to the second Polish P…

478.After the passing of Brunon, I was quite content to retire to this qu…

479.On a Saturday in May, I chewed, then swallowed the last bit of coars…

480.Many months it took me to teach the good sisters who cooked for m…

481.I gave up a hearty belch before approaching the door of the church …

482.I prepared myself to hear many times over: “I felt jealousy towards…

483.Petty jealousies, forgotten prayers, distractions at worship—I year…

484.Over and over I assign the penance: “Say three Our Father’s and th…

485.Very infrequently would I hear a confession of lascivious acts from t…

486.“Yes, Father. I wish to confess several sins of impurity, thoughts and…

487.“Were you alone?” I asked.

488.“Yes, Father.”

489.“Did you take sustained pleasure in these acts?”

490.“Yes, Father.”

491.“Have they become habitual?”

492.“Yes, Father, I am troubled quite regularly.”

493.“Have you succumbed regularly?”

494.“Yes, Father, almost nightly.”

495.To this poor soul overcome by the urges of her lower parts, I assigne…

496.“My dear sister,” I told her, “the first thing you must do is to pray …

497.“No, Father,”she said.

498.“Then, add to your prescribed penance,” I said, “a decade of the Ros…

499.My mind wandered as I recited the words of absolution from rote …

500.“Go in peace now, my good sister,” I told her.

501.I heard several more confessions of womanly squabbles, fleeting i…

502.Finally, the last sister confessed and notified me that she was the l…

503.I was still seated in the confessional when I heard Giacomo push o…

504.This day, no one approached the box for several minutes; the time …

505.Before I could move from the confessional, however, I heard the ru…

506.“Bless me father for I have sinned. It has been two days since my la…

507.She emitted a peculiar scent too, a scent unlike that from the lye soa…

508.“Go ahead, my dear, tell us your sins,” I said.

509.The voice—it changed. It was deeper now, like the voice of a young …

510.“I wish to confess that I have pleasured a man’s body, and he has ple…

511.This bizarre switch by the penitent into fluent Polish, and a certain …

512.“Where did this action take place?” I asked.

513.“In a privy at St. Maximillian in Kraków,” said the voice.

514.A churning of my stomach made me put my hand to my mouth. Th…

515.A very distasteful memory gurgled up from beneath the waters of …

516.Then an anger took possession of me; I knew not why. I rose from m…

517.“The impurity, the filth,” I cried, bursting forth from the confession…

518.What I saw was the smiling face of a young woman, her dark hair c…

519.Lying now on my side, my hips pulsating in a vulgar motion, my awa…

520.In contrast to Father Pavlowski’s written account of the confession…

521.My linguistic team was able to provide the phonetic approximation o…

522.As she kneels before me I ask: “Did you ever push a living fish into y…

523.The woman responds: “Ambaciccu’! e a matteu’ nient’ accauàgli' ag…

524.I ask: “Have you ever had your sultry mavens knead the bread upo…

525.The woman responds: “Staoommma! iéua sorda sòrda séra! Zomp…

526.I ask her: “Have you ever taken off your clothes, spread honey upo…

527.She responds: “Ma che tapòzz’na prépiament’ accìda! Appart'nàta …

528.I ask: “Have you ever taken the blood of your period and used it in p…

529.She responds: “Fussiaccìsa! Ha raccu’t’ i lèpr’ sa ittàt' a b’t’cu’ ghia…

530.I ask: “Have you ever removed the genitalia from a corpse, burned …

531.She concludes: “Sou accis’ bèn' bèn' p’zzèssa b’n’détta. Ta pòzza dà …

532.And this is why I, Wencelaus Pavlowski, heard, but did not absolve…

533.“O, good sister,” I addressed her, “you are close to the flesh but not…

534.I instructed her further: “Cunnus diaboli, you have burrowed into m…

535.Then I tried to grope myself, but I could not feel my manhood. It w…

536.“Et sunt eunuchi qui se ipsos castraverunt propter regnum caelorum…

537.“Touch me, Woman, and I shall be restored,” I begged. “Touch me, t…

538.Curious segment or meaningful narrative? I still don’t know how t…

539.As we can discern, Sebbie, Father Pavlowski in these rants displaye…

540.In this Montefiascone event, we must view confession and its powe…

541.The motive for Laranía’s instigation in the confessional event seem…

542.I also believe Laranía’s request for an encounter with Father Jacks…

543.Through a confluence of lived experience, genetic heritage, and cul…

544.After the third day of therapeutic interviews with Father Pavlowski…

545.Once I had Winnie at rest, I returned to further analysis of the initi…

546.The Key to Understanding

547.After lunch on the via Salaria, Father O’Reilly made an unplanned …

548.I know, Sebbie, that you often take measures to protect Father O’R…

549.After the weirdness I let O’Reilly play out in the catacombs, investi…

550.I didn’t tell O’Reilly I used to walk these streets talking to the girls ju…

551.O’Reilly took off his collar and told me to do the same before we go…

552.“We are going to meet a Madame Soffiana. She has helped me unti…

553.Madame Soffiana met us in the foyer of a large apartment. There w…

554.She said right off I struck her as a hard man, unbending in my deme…

555.The most intense session, when the young men were ready, involve…

556.O’Reilly broke in to explain how the design of the female anatomy, …

557.“The penis,” O’Reilly said, “with its nerve transmission tied to erect…

558.O’Reilly went on to tell this story:

559.“About the year 124o, near the city of Naples, a young man in a mo…

560.Madame Soffiana, who was standing behind Father O’Reilly’s chai…

561.“Do you, remember, Father Jackson, when I acquainted you and you…

562.O’Reilly then went on to show a deficiency in the radical sacrifice S…

563.“What did Thomas do rather that seek a greater understanding of …

564.“When he could no longer see her tempting assets, he quieted the im…

565.“Then, stripped of all tendencies of the flesh, the Angelic Doctor pr…

566. O’Reilly surprised me at a point in his discourse when he must hav…

567.My mind was going numb trying to absorb all this talk that started …

568.Madame Soffiana spoke into an intercom and a few moments later t…

569.I was pissed off at what I figured a ploy to somehow shock me. O’R…

570.I told her I understood how pleasure comes from an organ, but ho…

571.“A clitoral orgasm releases a wonderful substance which is necessar…

572.“So a flick of the clit and the gal’s mind, body and spirit are in orde…

573.“Your flippancy indicates fear and misunderstanding, a mind captur…

574.“One of your own popes in a letter to the women of the world state…

575.I allowed the girl to come before me, lift her tunic and show me her…

576.“I’m sorry, Angelina,” I told her. “I have no words of blessing for an…

577.At that point Soffiana called me a cynical bastard, and I realized th…

578.We walked the two blocks to the Franciscan General House where th…

579.“The way I essentially see it, my boy, this Laranía is one of those ra…

580.“Remember how I taught you young men about Aristotle’s struggle…

581.“Aquinas later took recourse in the creation myth in Genesis: ‘male…

582. We reached the car; the driver opened the door for us and we put …

583.He went on with more inscrutable metaphors and analogies about w…

584.What I had just witnessed in the whorehouse sideshow was maybe s…

585.When we I got back to my apartment at the Palace, a message was …

586.“What the hell?” I thought.

587.At this point, let me explain, Sebbie, why I didn’t reveal myself to Bu…

588.You have already read Buck’s account of the incident that led to ou…

589.We have experienced the same, have we not, dear Sebbie, this mis…

590.I knew Buck’s trust in his old professor would be tested by O’Reilly…

591.The Kiss of a Man

592.My second probing of Buck’s mind-spirit cohesion came after I rene…

593.Without much of a discussion, I asked him to accompany me that ev…

594.When Buck came down from his apartment that evening, I gave hi…

595.I went through the sophisticated procedures used to handle individu…

596.“It still looks like you take care of those with the longest arms and …

597.I summoned the car, and the driver drove us past the homes the Alm…

598.“Are these here in case they run out of diapers?” Buck asked.

599.Still playing the cynic, he was, my old friend. I was not troubled wit…

600.When I told Buck our last stop on my ministerial tour would be Di…

601.I went on to inform him about the term “Ømnigen,” always upperc…

602.Diocleto, I explained, was not a place to pick a partner for short term…

603.This is the center point of my ministry, I told him. Ømnigens gathe…

604.We entered the bar wearing our clerical collars and did not attract …

605.I recounted the history of the mutations of the terrible virus that b…

606.We reached a door off the main floor of the bar, and I pressed a glow…

607.“Take your collar off and pocket the cross” I told Buck. “Seeing chu…

608. Remember, Sebbie, when I told you about my first meeting with C…

609.You never met him, Sebbie, but Carlo was tall and looked like a Bri…

610.I gave Carlo a big hug and made a point of always being in physical…

611.To my surprise Buck moved to embrace Carlo, rather lightly put his…

612.“You got a husky one here, Syd. What’s your name, Father?” asked C…

613.Buck introduced himself to Carlo, who then made some comments a…

614.During our visit with him, Carlo would float in and out of reality, sa…

615.Buck helped me lift Carlo out of bed and Buck carried him to a tub …

616.What holiness, I thought, as I removed the soiled rubber pad from C…

617.After his bath, and we laid Carlo onto the fresh linens, he turned to …

618.“I’ve hated you god-sellers all my life for what you did to my family…

619.Carlo was hostile to organized religion, not to religion, and that wh…

620.“What would that mean, Carlo?” I asked him. “With what state of …

621.“I saw his image, The Savior’s, in my last glob of coughed up sputu…

622.“Not good enough. Your sarcasm dulls the trace of spirit-bonding. …

623.“Okay, you want something spiritual: how about my welcoming th…

624.We priests studied in our theology of morals, the question whether…

625.I always maintained the will, not the mind determined salvation. I …

626.I told Carlo’s nurse to go get a piece of bread or a soda cracker as C…

627.“I can give him an injection that will make it easier for him to swallo…

628.I used the Ritual of Exigent Consecration, to turn the Matzoh into th…

629.“I can’t believe I just ate Jesus,” he said. “Would you say the poem …

630.What Carlo remembered, Sebbie, was a poem I had recited one tim…

631.Carlo couldn't sleep, couldn't stop crying. I and a few of his faithful …

632.One night the angels took our Little Boy Blue,

633.But the little toy friends are true!

634.And they wonder, as waiting the long years through

635.What has become of our Little Boy Blue,

636.Since he kissed them and put them there.

637.I am convinced, Sebbie, that besides our need for a meaning in life, …

638.True friendship transforms both parties, so when a Carlo dies, he l…

639.The Roman poet Horace said: “If you want me to weep, you must fi…

640.I see, every day more clearly, what a mystery is human life, how ac…

641.We are, Sebbie, a species that procreates by copulation. The events w…

642.In their orgasmic ecstasies which penetrated the barriers between m…

643.Our physical sciences are near the point where bodies will spring fro…

644.It is apparent a corollary of these events establishes the coadjutant a…

645.Jesus walked this Earth with a penis between his legs, but his divin…

646.A rock, a snake, and a human: all have energy in common, but only…

647.But wait—I dally here in my exposition, dear Sebbie. All we have di…

648.The Ride to Great Flask Mountain

649.I planned in meticulous detail the journey north that would take B…

650.Poor Buck had slipped into a lethargic and unresponsive condition…

651.I hired a car and driver not associated with the Vatican to convey u…

652.I concurred with your suggestion that I also bring along Thomas O’R…

653.At O’Reilly’s suggestion, we began our journey in the house chapel u…

654.When O’Reilly concluded his exhortations with “Deus vult,” the ral…

655.I told O’Reilly to take Winnie to the limo while I woke Buck who ha…

656.We were half an hour into the journey when the first inexplicable p…

657.When we arrived at the entrance, Winnie jumped from the car eve…

658.Once inside the walls, I told the receptionist, a dour looking monk …

659.I turned to Winnie, who was gazing at a fresco depicting the Rape …

660.I interrupted the discourse to ask Winnie why he wanted to stop at…

661.“The workers found nothing in that quadrant; you’ll be wasting you…

662.“Dig there, where he directed you,” I told the workers as I gently le…

663.Three hours later, Sebbie, we had within our possession the clay ja…

664.After a cursory examination made over the next twenty-four hours b…

665.I had the documents sealed in nitrogen containers obtained from a…

666.As we neared the village, I became a bit concerned when Winnie st…

667.A Meal with Vestals

668.When we reached the church at Santa Maria della Potenza, I told t…

669.I was skeptical of her story, so after accepting her dinner invite to j…

670.I did not want to take Winnie into the church or rectory until we h…

671.No one greeted us at the door, so we followed the directions on a si…

672.“I’ll just get this baby open and let it breathe awhile,” said Buck as …

673.I excused myself to use the washroom, and on my return to the tabl…

674.When I returned to the table, Buck and Thomas had already empti…

675.Just as I sat down, the tavern doors opened and women, some in h…

676.Sister Aba Mina, dressed in full habit, was the last to enter. She stoo…

677.I assured her that Winnie was all right.

678.“Let me assure you, Father Stiche,” she explained, “no one of us wo…

679.She showed us to a table in a conspicuous forward section of the di…

680.We looked back at the rear of the hall where the men from the villag…

681.“Now, besides another portion of wine and a sampling of our reno…

682.I told her to bring a fruit and cheese selection along with a basket o…

683.The evening meal passed without incident save for the occasional ra…

684. “Quomodo felicitas monacho datus est?” he asked her.

685.“I don’t know,” she replied. “How does one keep a monk happy?”

686.“Fidem scit,” answered Winnie who started cackling uncontrollabl…

687.I had tipped Sister Lucia off to Winnie’s condition and she handled…

688.Winnie replied: “You are the blessed one who fills my stomach. Si fi…

689.“The end is good, indeed,” Lucia answered.

690.“You have pierced me with your loving spear; my happy heart will …

691.Sister Lucia looked across the table at me and said: “Tell the hatted…

692.I was a bit agitated by Lucia’s words, which at the time seemed utt…

693.Winnie’s Disposition

694.Upon our departure from Taverna Gropparella, I lead the group to t…

695.I led the group to the rectory across the square passed through the …

696.There among sermon notes and equipment catalogs related to mea…

697.That evening I slept on a cot next to Winnie whom I purposely assig…

698.The next morning, O’Reilly informed me that Father Jackson had l…

699.To care for Winnie, I summoned medical attendants from a nursin…

700.The Kiss of a Woman

701.I rented a vehicle, a large sedan, at a business in the nearby town of …

702.The tracking device I had implanted in the band of his Stetson emi…

703.His train was scheduled to arrive in Venice at 18,40, so I drove on …

704.I took special care with the bag containing the surveillance equipme…

705.The blip on my handheld locator indicated that Buck had arrived a…

706.Laranía must have arranged for a room at the pensione because I sa…

707.I waited in the cafe until they were out of sight, and a few moments…

708.L: You have let me begin to kiss you. Is this not against your sacred…

709.B: What do I owe you?

710.L: Nothing but your goodness.

711.(Pause. Another long embrace, kiss.)

712.L: This is not good. I feel your manhood on me. You are giving love i…

713.B: This is not what I should be doing with you, woman.

714.L: Do it with me to show you love all mankind as did the Savior of th…

715.B: Teach me how, if you are able.

716.L: You are free to love me, are you not?

717.B: I must love you, until you become good.

718.L: I will show you goodness in the prick of a thorn, the lash of a whi…

719.B: I have been instructed to follow you in all that is not sinful, but I w…

720.L: Is your body fooling you, my excitable Bucci.

721.B: All bodies are foolish, are they not?

722.(A pause, then both subjects gaze out over the waters of the canal.)

723.L: There is a cool breeze. The stars above our heads shine on the dar…

724.B: I may begin to see holiness in this if I can overcome the flesh.

725.L: Not, “overcome,” Bucci, but “transform.” You ask me what you “o…

726.B: It was an impure act. I kissed you because you desired it, but I r…

727.L: Then we must kiss again, and this time make it not the kiss of Jud…

728.The subjects embraced and kissed at length. Buck’s Stetson must h…

729.The next morning I donned my disguise, readied my equipment ba…

730.I was concerned that Buck might see through my disguise, but Lar…

731.B: I’m sorry, Lara, for my lack of control on the Rialto last night, an…

732.L: And I, Bucci, apologize for my silence. You did what your consci…

733. (I watched as a young woman approached the table.)

734. L: This is my young friend, Saffina, one of the girls I educate.

735.(Buck stood and greeted her. The young woman, slight of build wit…

736.L: Saffina was going to kill her child today. She has sixteen years a…

737.(I heard Buck mutter a vulgarity sotto voce.)

738.L: Yes, it is bad for her. I want you to help her. I have suggested an…

739.(I could see Buck raise his head over the steaming cup of expresso …

740.B: An abortion?

741.L: No, Bucci, not an abortion. Have you no knowledge of the medic…

742.B: Celibate, yes, but perhaps a bit unchaste.

743.L: Our actions of last night were for the most part pure, were they …

744.B: I’m intacta, in the frontal sense at least, dear woman.

745.(Father Jackson stared at Laranía, his lips pursed and his brow fur…

746.L: You must speak with me and Saffi together about your mind. I wa…

747.B: How do you know that? Are you privy to my instructions? Do yo…

748.L: No, I only know what your mind wants me to know. We must go…

749.(Audio transcription PAV-01 concluded.)

750.Out of the Womb

751.I did not set up an observation of the fetal transfer procedure, dear S…

752.The procedure he employed was not explicitly included in the mora…

753.When I examined Saffina using the advanced Tisarazian 400, I dis…

754.Initial psycho-spiritual acceptance of separation by the mother teste…

755.I indicated the ideal separation for transplant point in Saffina’s cas…

756.The catalogs of the Amalthusian Order showed the presence of at l…

757.The procedure was accomplished sine malefactionem during physi…

758.Signed: Dr. Marcello Malpighi, M.D., OB/GYN, DPM, BMic.

759.Thus a new life was on course to enter the world. Perhaps, Sebbie, …

760.Lago Misurina

761.I was at my observation post in the cafe when Buck and Laranía ret…

762.It was about the eighth hour the next morning when I observed Lara…

763.I walked across the street to the lobby where the desk clerk waved …

764.Oh quanto è corto il dire e come fioco al mio concetto! e questo, a qu…

765.Following the words from the poet, was the scribbled message: GH…

766.I alerted the desk clerk about the stale fish, compensated him for t…

767.I began the drive on the A-27 to Belluno, turned off on the via Cima …

768.In these days of squabbling religious factions these joint licenses ar…

769.I was at the window of my room which afforded a superb view of th…

770.He walked out of my view into the lobby below, and perhaps it was t…

771.The boulders, some face-like, others flat-topped turrets, were spott…

772.I rang the desk clerk and he informed me that a woman had reserv…

773.I found nothing out of the ordinary in the room save for Buck’s sm…

774.I’ve since found the lines were from a poem, Inno a Satano, and see…

775.I retreated to my room, rang the desk to send up a bottle of Prosecc…

776.I awoke about the eighth hour, and from the balcony of my room, i…

777.At nine, Laranía Rossettini di Livenzano appeared from a path bet…

778.Using my enhanced vision spectacles, I then observed Laranía ope…

779.The listening device recorded her saying, “I dressed for the occasio…

780.Buck drank and commented: “Flowery essence hammered home b…

781.“Strega, si; lei piace?” she asked. Buck did not respond. They drank…

782.Laranía spoke: “The last sips. This is what you must do. Come up h…

783.“Now put your face next to mine,” she gurgled in a jocular manner …

784.“We must hike to Tre Cime, the Auronzo refuge,” said Laranía. “W…

785.To this Buck replied: “Your will be done, good sister.”

786.With a linen cloth she took from the pocket of her ski jacket, Laran…

787.Laranía tells him: “You make your mind fat with phony dreams, m…

788.She led the way up a path on a hill at the rear of the hotel, into the …

789.The Auronzo Refuge

790.For my part, I was neither inclined nor equipped to follow the cou…

791.When I stationed the car and entered the rifugio, A gruff clerk at th…

792.The clerk’s attitude changed abruptly when I presented papers givin…

793.Buck and Laranía reached the rifugio at 16,00 hours, having covere…

794.The Mass in a Cave

795.This incident that took place in a cave, dear Sebbie was related by …

796.When we got to the room in the refuge Lara told me she would take …

797.I told Lara her mother had told me a version of this story a few yea…

798.Lara told me to put the wooden case on my back again for the walk…

799.The walk to the cave opening was easy, over level ground and a slig…

800.Lara then pulled some other items from a separate compartment i…

801.“If you want to do this according to the old rite, first, I must wash u…

802.“Yes. Wash me, Bucci, and my flesh shall be whiter that snow,”she …

803.I continued: “Introibo ad altare Dei ... Ad Deum qui laetificat juve…

804.“We indeed go as young and joyful even in our aging bodies, my ma…

805.“Quia peccavi nimis cogitatione, verbo, et opere,” I obliged.

806.“Thought, word and deed—that is also how we will love, my Bucci; t…

807.I recited the proclamation of fault in the Confiteor: “Mea culpa, me…

808.“Put your hand here, Bucci,” she asked. “Now strike as hard or as s…

809.I repeated the words: “Mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa.” …

810.“Yes,” I heard her say, “make my flesh burn pure like the hot coals o…

811.I recited the words: “Et incarnatus est de Spiritu Sancto ex Maria V…

812.“Flesh becomes spirit, man makes God makes man. Make me, goo…

813.“Sanctus, Sanctus, Sanctus ...” I intone.

814.“Holy, holy, holy—yes, in all our parts, my Bucci. Blessed, we shall …

815.I raced towards the words of consecration: “Accipite, et manducate…

816.“And this is my body,” she proclaimed. “Do you see evil in my brea…

817.I prepared to pronounce the words of consecration over the chalice…

818.“My blood, hot, poured out to remove sin, pulses within us, now an…

819.As I brought the chalice down, she began reciting a version of the p…

820.We ate of the body of Christ and drank His blood. After taking Com…

821.“Yes, we must go; it will be done,” she replied.

822.I began packing the box with the liturgical items, but as I adjusted …

823.She lead the way to the cave entrance, paused, and said, “This eve …

824.We began the walk back to the refuge—me puzzled, yet seeking; sh…

825.The long shadows of the mountains were now merged into twilight…

826.We talked during dinner about what we were doing here on the mou…

827.“You can’t tell me why you sent for me?” I asked.

828.“This night will tell us all,” she said. “We will begin the journey of th…

829.We walked to the counter, paid for the meal, and were told by the c…

830.When we got to the room, I sat on the bed, Lara lit several candles a…

831.A Witness to the Eve

832.At this point, Sebbie, as the exchanges began in the room, I had ful…

833.I can tell you, dear Sebbie, that what I witnessed and have on recor…

834.Here then is what I witnessed electronically that eve as the couple fa…

835.Do you remember the relic case over which we said the Mass, Bucc…

836.My mother had a premonition that this event would happen, so sh…

837.I laid there with my eyes shut, feeling a strange mixture of fear, an…

838.Basileo came to my bed and muttered the words, “Little flower bloo…

839.He was in a drunken stupor, stumbling, but managed to pull back th…

840.He was too busy looking at my topa to see my eyes open. In the di…

841.Bending over the bed, supported with his hands on the wall, he slo…

842.As he tried to enter me, he began a gentle cooing which all the sud…

843.I smiled trying not to laugh as I watched him jump about and try t…

844.The next day I heard the barking of Basileo’s dog behind our house…

845.The next day some townspeople found Basileo’s remains on the rai…

846.I watched the video feed from two different cameras as Laranía aske…

847.She then removed his shirt and helped him out of his denim trouse…

848.He stood before her as she addressed him:

849.“O wonderful man! You are naked in my sight and not ashamed; fo…

850.In the darkness of evening, Laranía began disrobing as Buck stood …

851.“A white cloth used to cover the heads of criminals at sentencing by …

852.She laughed, then took the garment off his head. “This is more tha…

853.Standing next to the cot upon which Laranía had spread the white li…

854.“In prima parte, Bucci mio, you must view every inch of this flesh th…

855.“I see the worry in your eyes, my Bucci man. Your seed will not be …

856.Still standing before Laranía, Buck’s fingers gently touched her hai…

857.He traced with a finger the small line of dead flesh on her cheek, a …

858.She spoke to him: “Hold me. I feel protected with your hand there.…

859.She took Buck’s hand and began to speak in poesy: “Move to touch…

860.She then delves into historical perspective regarding the act they a…

861.“Hieronimus declares unclean the act; a father says you will walk t…

862.“Your Auggie’s lust defied his will and ruled his manly gifts; a bond…

863.“Impudens motus, head upthrust, flout Creator’s word. Shameful pa…

864.“Our entrails read by whorish priests: disfigured in the womb they …

865.“Crippled spirits, meddling with the flesh of man, his soul drawn o…

866.“Weakened seed, a sour wind blows, a lesser human forms, softer, m…

867.After a brief pause, during which the touching exercise was suspen…

868.“Callous Man! You act as though you are performing a duty for you…

869.Buck stood at attention and had no verbal response, but I could se…

870.“Your reaction to my touch is like a stone, Bucci mio. I feel electric,…

871.She took his hands in hers and held them to her cheeks: “Hard, roug…

872.Laranía directed Buck to sit upon the cloth she had prepared upon …

873.“The lure of beauty, truth ascending, lack fulfilling, flaming tongue…

874.“Columns of the temple, thighs entwined, supple grace supine on c…

875.“Love surpassing fire soon to be discovered, dispersed upon the eart…

876.She instructs him:

877.“Now breathe as I do show you. Deeply—your breathing must cudd…

878.“Give us your being, place it between us, see the changing image of…

879.“We seek an inner peace that consecrates our flesh, a communion f…

880.“Love moving matter, sanctifying flesh. Beauty pushing skin and bo…

881.“Virgin, lover, mother, phallic sense entwined and cosmos moving.

882.“We virgins plow the fertile fields to make a bed for the Word enfles…

883.“Our sex engaged we stay above the beast, riding through the night…

884.“Eros marble, Eros mire—the choice is willful, preordained.

885.“How high these organs take us; what vision of the whole they show…

886.“Perversion is a breaking of the scene that through our flesh and s…

887.“Seed and penetration unavailing; the making of the Word through…

888.Seated on the cot, entwined, the couple began a rhythmic motion o…

889.Whether it was the uncomfortable rough hewn wood of the countr…

890.When I awoke, the couple were still intertwined on the cot, but the…

891.Laranía seemed to be clutching a passive partner as she emitted m…

892.“Opening breach of love divine new being make and future form ...

893.“A shaking out to Them on high the image of the reign so clear ...

894.“The flush, the tingle, throbbing—servers to our souls controlled b…

895.“Quiver, pucker, aching—make so easy union of our being ...

896.“Arousal regulata—unruled jerkings saved by voluntary grace, year…

897.“The boneless makes the angel with the force of will ...

898.“Pulse, hot but tender, ecstatic melt, vibrato, vibratissimo, ex capit…

899.“Pisciculi, Ichthus nunc commingling; throbbing, groping, rising, t…

900.“There is One who stands at center, lays on edge, falls in spiral to t…

901.“Phantasmata enfleshed! The Mover plods inward, never up and o…

902.“Orgasmos! Abussos! Summa voluptas! The shaking of the corpus …

903.“Desired not, semen reservatus, vital, spread throughout your innar…

904.“Worship. Be revealed. Abandon self. Religaturum esse.”

905.The trembling of the two bodies seemed to subside after an hour o…

906.“Connubialis, homo erectus nunc summissus ...

907.“Give us this eve, serenitas dilectionis, clarity, union unsullied ...

908.“Luminosa limes, intimate, we walk the edge of self unbound ...

909.“Lips full met and suckled transport drugging nectar; paraklētos ca…

910.“Coitio spiritum gignendi, pollutes not, vitiates never; fog of lust di…

911.After a short pause, their entwined bodies begin trembling again. L…

912.“Immaculatum semen Ambrosianum—Deus loquebatur per suum …

913.“Woman recast by spiritual heat, refining inferno, fecund on hearin…

914.“Mother begetting God; God begetting Our Father; sons and daugh…

915.“Bonding joins delight in mind as well as flesh ... waking to the soul …

916.“Recedant vetera, nova sint omnia—let what is outdated recede, let e…

917.There was then another pause and then Laranía began to sing a hym…

918.“Exalted be the Living God and praised, she exists unbound by tim…

919.“Inscrutable, a body given, never seen. She preceded every being th…

920.“A flow of prophets teach this treasured, splendid couple; they kno…

921.At this moment, Laranía clung even more tightly to Buck’s torso, the…

922.After the final emission of Aramaic, when the couple seemed at res…

923.hē bēth gāmal waw hēth gāmal hēth hē tēth gāmal bēth gāmal † tēt…

924.Recognizing the minor and major pauses and taking the guttural e…

925.52 36 8 38 59 32 30 92 • 36 14 38 63 117 6 25 30 • 35 35 30 90 116 …

926.I stared and stared at the numbers which seemed to have their origi…

927.Romeward Bound

928.I fell asleep with the recording devices still operating and woke at f…

929.Buck didn’t talk much while we munched away on the breakfast fo…

930.Laranía took Buck’s hand and walked him to the refuge parking ar…

931.In two hours we approached the outskirts of the city. Laranía directe…

932.She told me to park the car near the Savina School on Via della Pes…

933.The couple then walked into the yard and gathered the children abo…

934.Approaching what seemed to be the finale, Buck lined up the boys o…

935.If a girl accepted the boy by kneeling with him, she rose and took h…

936.How brutal, I thought at first, as I watched the line of “single” boys…

937.The very first test of my theory met with success. Perusing my tran…

938.I quickly examined the remaining sets of numbers and plotted the…

939.The Numbers Tell

940.Quelling my enthusiasm for the moment, the first order of busines…

941.I watched as Laranía listened, enthralled by your approbation of th…

942.The grappa you served after dinner loosened even Buck’s tongue, an…

943.Unhindered by the lording of one culture over the other; independ…

944.How happy was I when I discovered the numeric evidence pointed t…

945.The catalog is incomplete; I have investigated only one-tenth of the…

946.This may be our last chance, my love, before the conflagration of w…

947. Locus 52 36 8 38 59 32 30 92. Arkaim site near Sintashta, Russia; e…

948.We found at Arkaim what might be termed the socioreligious missin…

אהיה אשר אהיה . 949

950.The alphabetic transcription reads:

951.EHYEH ASHER EHYEH

952.English translation: “I am that I am,” or according to more recent sc…

953.At the Arkaim site, excavating locations indicated to the meter by t…

954.What of the other groupings of numbers? Would they be of value? W…

955.21 17 40 38 40 10 2 43. Cave south of Mount Arafat, Saudi Arabia; …

956.35 35 30 90 116 59 27 11. Kong Miao Temple, Qufu, Shandong Provi…

957. 34 27 18 136 43 33 2. Kotai Jingu Shrine, Uji-tachi, Japan: wood c…

958.10 13 36 64 76 11 54 7. Bhagavathy Temple, Kodungallur, India: ve…

959.34 31 19 60 70 34 19 99. Tell near Ahan Posh Tape, Buddhist mona…

960.2 6 36 85 41 1 44 27. Site of ancient seaport Raptha, near Quelima…

961. 13 46 7 57 172 15 13 3. Ancient Tia Seu Mound (known as Pulemele…

962.34 34 29 8 98 32 46 32. Kwahne Potter home museum, near Cache…

963.32 44 46 56 35 16 31 8 Tzippori, Israel (Sepphoris): Excavations ben…

964.The text interprets the meaning of “kingdom” (Greek, basileia; He…

965. Sebbie, it is as if our attempted reformulations of faith and extensio…

966.Our puny minds attempt to call our history, supernatural, unboun…

967.We must not look for an intervention from without, but instead a fre…

968.Our continuing identity in resurrection will not depend on the mol…

969.These and other discoveries will ignite the fire of a new hope, dear S…

970.The Couple’s Fate

971.I turn now, Sebbie, to a more somber contemplation. It has been nea…

972.We may have to temper our hope for this new order of tolerance an…

973.The only personal missive I received since their flight consisted of …

974.While de-soiling the Animati, summer's heat was kind, wilting fles…

975.October kept us cool, blanketing our ground, provoking dampness,…

976.And as adults, rooming at the Apollo, my lover's choice, you took …

977.Ah, yes, but near the lagoons—there we felt constraints. You ogled th…

978.Why have the leaves descended? What roots have wilted, withered w…

979.I can listen and discern, for I ignore the wonders in the chasm of d…

980.In the dry soil a touch of dampness breeds a light.

981.“Go out into the light on this black soil,” I am told, “and I will muffl…

982.‘You cut my brambles first a day ago; now you call me weedless witc…

983.Then awake, we went to meet the counselor for the beast, the Père C…

984.“Here, within this bunch,” said he, “you find the cracked green cat'…

985.‘Turn away, son! Here I hold ugly bitch, the Whore of Pebbles Past,…

986.“Pick the lonely one; you see her there. I loose her as your woman …

987. “Damn you, boy. If you hear the accursed Mr. Goodfeel, send him h…

988.We departed and then I ran alone:

989. I ran gliding over the river of entrails, under the yellow clarity of a…

990.Grunts, long and frequent, swallowed, when I thumped my arms a…

991.A man who also ran spied me in the shadows and stopped to whisp…

992.“No, boy. You went besmirched on the trail to Livenzano. That livi…

993.I harangued the stranger to his face: “You! The one who brought th…

994.“Me? True seer, no! Illusion’s fool, you—my sister, God!”

995.I turned away to leave, my heart so full of loathing, and then retire…

996.On the morrow, a game of bocce well played:

997.The couch I lay upon, a spongey pallet soiled by the mud; above yo…

998.A darkening frost descends upon the cushions now; my beads gro…

999.Despite the tubes of plastic and clear cauchuc sacks, the familiar n…

1000.Dampness, too, is seated on your jugs of milk, dripping on the grai…

1001.So politely all enjoined; yet from above a wounded bird spurts bloo…

1002.“Pooh-pooh your sanitary hands!” I yell, and the other plump and…

1003.Then we hear beneath the floors: the barking heads drawn back, ca…

1004.Out of the chilly darkness, under the bush, your skin contracts; you…

1005.“My veins are good today,” she says.

1006.Not good. Depart from her, I’m counseled by a psychogenic beast. …

1007.I always knew who she was feeling. Feel.

1008.I saw her roam the paradise of cats where vital women find their …

1009.What is that silence? The fog out the window? What was that sile…

1010.Everything, again, everything.

1011.Do you feel everything? Do you hear everything? Do you forget ever…

1012.Aiiii-ee! that Dantean linen—it's so coarse, so kitsch.

1013.What won't she later do? What won't she do? Will she amble out an…

1014.The cold wind hits at two, and when it blows you shall wage a war …

1015.“When Willie's pet gave up its flint,” she said, “he always dug my d…

1016.Later, Willie's leaving dumbed her down. She wanted to forget wh…

1017.So she kept it up for Willie, but gives up a ragged piece for temple …

1018.He blesses her, but she cannot turn her eyes from you.

1019.She asks: “How long will he demand the riches of my soul?

1020.Willie says he’s been a hound before her dancing for nine months…

1021.“Oh isn't there?” I asked.

1022.Nothing of these.

1023.“Then you'll remember who to damn,” I said, “who might take from…

1024.SLOW DOWN THANK YOU THE MOMENT HASN'T COME.

1025.And there its end, my love, the final words from our blessed Buck a…

1026.I will end my scribbling now and pack these pages for the courier w…

1027.Final Request

1028.Come now my darling sprite, your meddling work is done. My an…

1029.Final Directive

1030.Destroy the devices with the visual record of events and the excav…

Edition Notes


Disclaimer: All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.


Dedication: To the people and animals of verdant Bologna.


Cover Art: Universal Man, an illumination from Book of Divine Works (Liber Divinorum Operum), Blessed Hildegard of Bingen, 1165; (truncated to accommodate the theme and essence of this work, Eve of the Cowmaker).


E-text version published May, 2011 @ Apple iBookstore by C. F. Ray Publishing under the title, Cowmaker’s Eve © Copyright 2011 C. Francis Ray. ISBN 978-0-9832561-0-6.


First Print Edition published August, 2011 by C. F. Ray Publishing, Harlingen, Texas, under the title, Cowmaker’s Eve © Copyright 2011 C. Francis Ray. ISBN 978-0-9832561-1-3



Author Information: Carroll F. Ray, Jr. [C. Francis Ray] is a former Catholic priest and seminary professor with graduate degrees from the University of Notre Dame and Oblate School of Theology. Most of his works fit the genre of futuristic religious fiction. His most recent title, Cowmaker's Eve, is available in paperback and E-text versions. He currently lives with his wife, Joy, in Harlingen, Texas. Email: cfraypub@me.com


Synopsis: During a time of escalating global strife among religious-political movements, baffling revelations with unifying potential occur. To ascertain their authenticity, a Vatican emissary investigates a Mexican woman’s vision of a “moon goddess” and interrogates her son, a priest, whose aborted ministry seems to have been resurrected through sacred encounters with an Italian mystic. During “moments of union” between the priest and mystic, prophetic utterances reveal secrets that prompt warring factions to seek the couple’s destruction.


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Glossary of Foreign Words and Arcane Terminology



•Accipite, et manducate ex hoc omnes ... the words of Jesus at the last supper; “Take and eat you all of this: This is my body.”

•Agape: a general affection or deeper sense of “true love” rather than the attraction suggested by “eros,” a “fleshy” love.

•Amare è la maniere più intensa di vivere: to love is to live in the most intense manner.

•Ambarabai ciccì coccò: Italian nonsense rhyme.

•Arousal regulata: “regulated arousal;” St. Augustine suggested that before the Fall sexual intercourse occurred without lust, the organs of reproduction activated by calm rational volition, not by uncontrollable passion.

•Asperges me ... Sprinkle me, wash me and I shall be whiter than snow.

•Benedictio Approbata: Approved Blessing.

•Bocce: a ball sport similar to lawn bowling.

•Branzino al forno: baked sea bass.

•Brit: the Jewish ceremony of circumcision on infant males.

•Buonanotti’s Giudizio Universale: Michelangelo’s fresco of the Last Judgement on a wall above an altar in the Sistine Chapel.

•Cabezita grumosa: Spanish for “Little lumpyhead;” used to describe Congenital absence of most of the brain and spinal cord in newly born infants.

•Cajones: balls, testicles.

•Calor genitalis: genital heat.

•Castel Gondolfino: the summer villa of the popes.

•Catamanine: a less harmful but more psychotropic derivative of last century NMDA receptor antagonist drugs that produces a dissociative state characterized by a sense of detachment from one's physical body and the external world which is known. Users may feel as though their perceptions are located so deep inside the mind that the real world seems distant yet deep subconscious yearnings have been achieved.

•Cauchuc sack: a rubber or plastic bag made from sap of the guayule shrub by the indigenous population of the Isthmus.

•Che peccato: (Italian) What a shame or pity; (fr. Latin root peccatum: sin, moral offense, error, mistake).

•Chichis: Slang for female breasts derived from the Nahuatl (Aztec) language: chichihualli (breasts); chichihualyacatl (nipples); chichihualyacahuitzli (tips of the nipples).

•Chilito: small chile; insignificant penis.

•Chingate, cabron: “Fuck you, asshole.”

•Chisme: gossip.

•Coitio spiritum gignendi: coition begetting spirit.

•Collazione: breakfast.

•Collinetta: (Italian) knoll, small hill; (slang) pubic mound.

•Colonia en el rancho: Enclave on large Texas ranches where the ranch workers are housed.

•Colonia chicas: young women of worker families on the ranch colony.

•Congiuntura: (Italian) a synergistic union of two principle actors begetting a product greater than the sum of the individual qualities of both.

•Connubialis, homo erectus nunc summissus: In sexual matters, the erect penis is now submissive to reason; Augustinian concept that the penile erection before the Fall was under the rational, voluntary control of man and that the first sin made the penile erection subject to the lustful passions and became a symbol of rebellion against the Almighty.

•Cunnus diaboli: vulva of the devil.

•Dator Benedictionis: Clergy authorized to dispense various types of blessings.

•Differentia: qualities that make one gender or species different from another.

•Digestivo: a beverage taken before a meal to aid digestion.

•Doméstica: a woman maid-servant who provides for the needs of a family.

•Ecce, filius meus: Behold, my son.

•El mercado: the market place.

•Eros: passionate love, with sensual desire and longing.

•Es muy importante: It is very important.

•Et incarnatus est de Spiritu Sancto ... “And (God) was made flesh by the Holy Spirit out of the Virgin Mary: He became man.”

•Et sunt eunuchi qui se ipsos castraverunt ... And there are those eunuchs who  castrate themselves because of heavenly demands.

•Ex cathedra: literally “from the seat;” official pronouncements and doctrine from the Pope and or highest church authority regarding faith and/or morals which are considered to be error free.

•Farfalle la vechia: pasta tossed with sautéed lobster, asparagus and mushrooms in a light white wine tomato sauce.

•Femina mas occasionatus: a female human viewed biologically as a “deficient” or “misbegotten male.”

•Fidem scit: Latin for “He knows the faith;” in pronunciation sounds like feed-em-sheet.

•Fille de joie: woman for pleasure; a prostitute.

•Fundamentalisti: global alliance of religious believers whose main tenet is that the exercise of political and military power globally is essential to further the arrival of religious fulfillment.

•Fungo: mushroom; frequently used as a literary and/or religious symbol of male fertility, virility, long life, happiness, rebirth, the human soul, knowledge and enlightenment.

•Grappa: an aromatic grape-based pomace brandy of Italian origin.

•Guardone affamato: famished guardian.

•Hic est enim calix sanguinis mei ... the words of Jesus at the last supper: “This is the chalice of my blood ... shed for the remission of sin.”

•Hildegard of Bingen: Medieval mystic, prophetess and visionary; abbess of a convent of religious women; music composer; author of books on spirituality, visions, medicine, sexuality and nature; critic of secular and religious leaders.

•Il corpo non importa: the body is not important.

•Il mio cappello ha tre punte: My hat has three corners.

•Immaculatum semen Ambrosianum: “immaculate seed” proposed by St. Ambrose; the efficacious heat of divine Logos could reform the deficient nature of a woman; God spoke through his angel and impregnated a virgin through the ear.

•Impotenza: impotent.

•Impudens motus: shameful movement; St. Augustine held that the sexual desire of our disobedient sexual organs arose in our first parents because of their sin of disobedience; their will power, disintegrated by disobedience, they covered their shameful members.

•In absentia: in the absence of.

•In prima parte: First of all.

•INRI: An acronym of the Latin words, Iesus Nazarenus, Rex Iudaeorum (Jesus the Nazarene, King of the Jews) purportedly placed on the cross above the crucified Jesus.

•Instituto Pontificale di Spiritualità Neurologica: Papal institute established by Pope Sebastian I to further research into the relationship between mental states and spirituality.

•Intocabile: untouchable.

•Introibo ad altare Dei ... I will go unto the altar of God; to the God who gives joy to my youth.

•Ite, meatus est: Go, the meat is there.

•Ite, missa est: Go, it is the dismissal.

•Jacal: hut, shack.

•Kochanek: (Polish) “lover.”

•La Capella Sistina: the Sistine Chapel adjacent to St. Peter’s Basilica.

•La felicitá non sta in uno stato della vita ... Happiness does not dwell in a state of life, but in a state of the spirit; to love is to live in the most intense manner.

•Lampredotto: a poor person’s and workers’ sandwich food sold from street carts made from the stomach of a cow.

•Landicosa: rare usage of a vulgar Latin term for the clitoris.

•Laudetur Jesus Christus. Pronto, chi parla?: Praised be Jesus Christ. Hello, who is speaking?

•Los maricones: effeminate homosexual males.

•Los Padrecitos: the dear fathers; Catholic missionary priests.

•Luminosa limes: brilliant, illuminated goal or vision.

•Malleus Maleficarum: hammer of witches.

•Maquiladora plants: manufacturing plants on Mexican side of U. S. Mexican border established to take advantage of liberal pollution controls and low wages.

•Maria Lactans: artistic representations of the Virgin Mary nursing the child Jesus.

•Matzoh: unleavened bread cracker used by the Jews to celebrate the passover.

•Menscorpiriti: compound of mens, corpus, spiritus (mind, body, spirit).

•Misogynist: a man who hates women.

•Mohel: a Jewish person trained in the practice of brit milah (circumcision).

•Mordida: a bite; bribe to an official.

•Mugiendo: the “moo-ing” of a bovine animal.

•Mysterion: Greek term for the mysteries of Christianity unfolding over time.

•Nacimiento: birthing; the figures, stable, and manger of a Nativity scene.

•Natura deficiens: deficient by nature; an entity lacking essential properties.

•Nalgas: buttocks.

•Nichomachean Ethics: Work by the philosopher Aristotle, c. 350 B.C.E., presenting a rational basis for discerning the “rightness” or “wrongness” of human moral choices.

•No lo ponga: do not put it.

•NON PROBATUS: not proven; failed.

•Oh quanto è corto il dire ... “O, how all speech is weak and fails to express what I saw which is not enough to call it little.”

•Orgasmos! Abussos! Summa voluptas: an orgasm that is bottomless, unbounded, of immeasurable depth, and yet of the highest spiritual order.

•Padellata di vongole cozze: steamed clams and mussels in a garlic white wine broth.

•Padre Salciccia: Father Sausage.

•Pan del campo: bread of the field.

•Parakletos: (Greek) companion, helper, intercessor, guide to the sublime.

•Paraphiliac: abnormal sexual desire to the point of self-destruction.

•Pauline Corpus: New Testament writings attributed to St. Paul (Saul of Tarsus) which filtered and clarified the diverse beliefs of early Christian communities.

•PAXTE CUM FILUMENA: “Peace be with you, Philomena.” Inscription on a sarcophagus in the Catacombs under the city of Rome used as a burial ground for First Century Christians.

•Phantasmata enfleshed: vague ideas of divine relationship needing human model; the idea that love cannot exist in nothing or in things, but somewhere in-between.

•Philos: a dispassionate virtuous love between friends.

•Pisciculi, Ichthus nunc ... little Latin fish (symbol of Jewish Christianity), big Greek fish (symbol of Hellenized Christianity) now commingling.

•Prensa roja: “red press;” graphic, sensational news magazines and visual media in Latin American countries.

•Privilegium Immunitatis: “Privilege of Immunity;” an arrangement between the Vatican and Italian regional governments to allow common investigative operations in the interest of social welfare.

•Pudenda, pudendum: external human genitalia, usually referring to female; from the Latin “that whereof one ought to feel shame.”

•Pulche: a milk-colored, viscous alcoholic beverage made from the fermented sap of the maguey plant developed by the Mexican ruler Montezuma II (c.1470-1520).

•Pulchra enim sunt ubera ... Breasts are most pleasing when they are of moderate size and eminence; they should be bound but not flattened, restricted gently and not allowed to wobble too freely.

•Putita: a young prostitute.

•Quinque viae: the five proofs of the existence of God as presented by St. Thomas Aquinas.

•Quomodo felicitas monacho datus est?: How do you make a monk happy?

•Ragazza: girl.

•Raison d'être: reason for existing.

•Religaturum esse: about to be bound.

•Rifugio: A shelter built on a mountain trail for climbers’ repose.

•Saco de goma: a rubber sack.

•Salvatio tuus et dilectio meus est: He is your salvation and my pleasure.

•San Chingadero: dear little fucker saint.

•San Pietro: St. Peter’s Cathedral, Rome, Italy.

•Sardee in saor: fried sardines in a sweet and sour sauce.

•Semen reservatus: seed not emitted.

•Senza profumato: without sweet scent.

•Si finis bonus est, totum bonum erit: Latin for “All’s well that ends well.”

•Skandha: (literally, "heap," "pile") In Buddhist teaching, a phenomenon that attaches to a person's psyche and and provides a sense of self, but cannot be considered "I" or "me."

•Strega, si; lei piace: Strega, yes; do you like? (Strega is an Italian herbal liqueur yellow in color from the presence of saffron in its recipe along with 70 herbal ingredients including mint and fennel.)

•Strega: witch.

•Su virilidad llevará ... Your manliness will contribute to the rise and fall of many.

•Succubos existisse hominibus ... Reflection of the  Medieval belief that demons could take the shape of a woman, steal semen from sleeping men through carnal relations or, assuming the shape of a man, implant purloined semen into unsuspecting women through coition during sleep.

•Sugo al pomodoro e basilico: tomato and basil sauce.

•Summa Theologica: Multi-volume work of St. Thomas Aquinas; a “summing up” of all that can be known about Christian theology.

•Tamal: Aztecan food of seasoned chopped meat and crushed peppers wrapped in cornhusks spread with larded corn meal.

•Topa: (Italian) female mouse; (slang) female genitalia.

•Tower of ivory: In Christian tradition, the term “Tower of Ivory” is a symbol for noble purity originating with a biblical verse from the Song of Solomon,"Your neck is like an ivory tower" and is applied to the Virgin Mary in the litany dedicated to her.

•Uti malleum veritatis ... Use the hammer of truth against a corrupted religion.

•Vibratissimo, ex capite ad hallucem: most violent vibration from head to toe.

•Virgo sine macula, intacta ego sum: I am an intact virgin without stain.

•Zeitgeist: Spirit of the times.